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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

Thank you for the restack @KentPeterson!

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Lisa Baird's avatar

Steve, your piece is exquisite. I really appreciate you sending it to me. I read it and listened to your audio. Loved hearing your voice speak your truth. These passages/lines resonated: “There is no air to breathe when truth strikes you so deep in your soul. It empties the air in your false self, forcing it out of you. You must will yourself to inhale again.” “I watch true love in action, marveling at the willingness, the desire to give, to share, to sacrifice for others. I ask myself then and continue asking myself the same question: “Can I love others like that?”

“I will never stop learning.” Teachers and lessons of life are everywhere as long as we are awake enough and introspective enough to learn them. And it sounds like you are wide awake! 😊 Thank you for the work you have done and/or are still doing for the homeless, not helpless. Helping those with home and food scarcity concerns is personally important to me. I make donations money and materials (not time, yet). I am inspired by your honesty and transparency.

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

Lisa I am very appreciative and humbled by your kindness. I’m still considering all that I learned from working with these people and how much I changed and needed to change. Just listening to their stories, seeing how they dealt with life on their own terms really opened my eyes to the privilege I take for granted. I am always curious and I will always want to learn more.

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Marsha Kessler's avatar

Thanks for sharing that history from your life. I worked in a soup kitchen for a few years, and like you, it opened my eyes to many things...mostly about me. I particularly like the final sentence: I will never stop learning.

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

I agree Marsha. I did this for years and was always amazed at how much I was learning about myself just by serving others. Still learning is another rule 😉

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MaryAnn McKibben Dana's avatar

One of the best you’ve written!

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

Wow! Thank you MaryAnn, but beauty is in the eye of the beholder. It's funny, I'm trying to show everyone I'm not a one-trick pony but everyone has their favorite trick😉

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MaryAnn McKibben Dana's avatar

Ah yes... you've probably heard the truism that every pastor only has three sermons they preach :-)

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

Funny you say that. No matter what subject I was asked to preach on it was always my goal to point toward loving God and loving others… always seemed to keep me grounded and kept it close to the heart and out of just the head.

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Stanley Wotring's avatar

Such great wisdom. Thank you for sharing this story and living the life you do.

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

Thank you so much Stan! Life is so varied and nuanced that I'm just reporting on what I see.

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Stanley Wotring's avatar

And we are grateful!

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Christine Vaughan Davies's avatar

"That's all she has to give" - what a powerful reframe and understanding of our neighbor. I enjoyed reading about all the "churchy things" you've done. And I want to read/hear one of the sermons you preached!

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

Thank you Christine! It's been a few years since I preached, and even though I have PowerPoint slides for everything, I just made notes and riffed off of them...it was all ad libbed on the spot😀

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Tiffany Chu's avatar

Wow this was wonderful to read, Steve. Thank you for sharing your experience. It's so humbling when faced with the generosity of others society usually looks down on. I had a similar experience when working with adults with physical disabilities, and it humbled me then as well. Never stop learning, indeed.

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

Thank you for sharing Tiffany. So true, learning about others really tells us so much about ourselves. Always learning 👍

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Michelle Dixon, Ph.D.'s avatar

This really touched me. It’s something I’ve been talking about about recently with my partner. Loving the way the other person needs it, not how you want to show it.

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

I'm so happy to hear that this resonated with you, Michelle. Love is not a one size fit all premise. This is one of the hardest lessons I've had to learn and continue to learn. Thank you again for reading and your heartfelt comment.

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Nina Carroll's avatar

Now there's love in action, without judgment or conditions. Thank you.

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

Thank you Nina. Something I’m always hoping for, sometimes it’s easy and sometimes it’s the hardest thing ever.

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Kara Westerman (she/her)'s avatar

Beautiful, steve! I love learning about your life. Who did the visuals?

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Christianna Joy Scott's avatar

This. This is love, isn’t it? Being humbled. Willing to learn. Offering what we have to give. What a beautiful story, Steve.

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

Thank you, Christianna. Yes, being humbled, being in a learning position, all part of love but it’s something I’m always working on. There are always opportunities I miss, but being able to honestly reflect upon life and what it brings is the only way to lean into love.

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Christianna Joy Scott's avatar

Yes, yes! As I’ve grown into young adulthood, humility is the one characteristic I feel that I didn’t witness enough of, and so have been trying to approach the world knowing I don’t have all the answers and I might actually need to learn something first, before offering what I think the world needs from me. Much like you at the park!

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TheUltraContemplative's avatar

Exactly. 👍

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Andrea Davis's avatar

“A thick layer of orangey red congealed fat that looks more industrial than edible always has me thinking twice. As I remain motionless, his eyes peer at me above his glasses.

Staring into my soul, he says, “Brother, that’s all she has to give.”

—-The profound reflections on small moments that most of pass by. Keep feeding us, Brother Steve….

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